But I do.
Sometimes I feel like I’m standing in the middle of a busy crowd and yet, it’s like I don’t even exist or make a ripple in the sea of people.
It’s almost a physical ache. Loneliness feels empty inside. Even though I know logically that I am not alone, I am battling the psychological feeling of being all by myself.
While I enjoy having time alone, being by myself and feeling lonely are two separate things. I’m an introvert and like to relax and unwind by being quiet and being left to myself. However, feeling lonely is like knowing you’re stranded on a deserted island with no one for miles around to hear you cry.
I feel like I’ve taken up a residence on the Isle of Loneliness.
It’s a continuous struggle for me to remember that even though I feel alone, I am NEVER truly alone. I found some verses that are helping me to believe and trust in God’s promise that He will never leave me alone.
“Your God, the Lord himself, will be with you. He will not fail you or abandon you.” Deuteronomy 31:6
“When they call to me, I will answer them; when they are in trouble, I will be with them.” Psalm 91:15(a)
“If the Lord had not helped me, I would have gone quickly to the land of silence. I said, ‘I am falling’; but your constant love, O Lord, held me up.” Psalm 94:17, 18
“Do not be afraid. I will save you. I have called you by name—you are mine. When you pass through deep waters, I will be with you; your troubles will not overwhelm you. When you pass through fire, you will not be burned; the hard trials that come will not hurt you. For I am the Lord, your God. … because you are precious to me and because I love you and give you honor, do not be afraid—I am with you!” Isaiah 43:1-5
“I will be with you always, to the end of the age.” Matthew 28:20
“I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you.” John 14:18
“No one stood by me the first time I defended myself; all deserted me. … But the Lord stayed with me and gave me strength.” 2 Timothy 4:16,17
I know that this may seem like a small trial to some people, but for me it’s a daily struggle to believe that I am not alone. However, these verses help remind me that God is working through me to grow my trust in Him, which is ultimately for my good. He is making me more like Christ in this manner to the end that it will bring Him glory.